My fear.

I'm sorry (to myself). I have not posted anything in a week. But I did think about posting things up. I was just real busy this week.

To make it up for the week, I've decided to reveal one of my biggest phobias: the flushing sound of the toilet.

Yes, I am scared shitless of the sound of toilets flushing.

Whenever I flush, I A)Cover my ears and look away and/or B) Bone out as fast as i can from the scene.

I have no idea why i'm scared of this. i just can't flush the toilet without covering my ears and running away. Whenever I use public bathroom, I literally cover my ears, turn the nob with my feet and get the fuck out of the stall. i'm not scared of myself getting sucked into the toilet or anything like that-- i just can't stand the sound.

The school bathrooms are the worst-- they are automatic flush and they make the loudest noise.

I hate the automatic flushing toilets.

Not only those toilets louder than the manual ones, they flush before i cover my ears or when I'm zipping my pants. And it scares me to no end.

These days I wait for it to flush (with my ears covered, of course) and after it flushes, I zip my pants up.

The thought of me standing in fromnt of a toilet covering my ears with my zipper undone is quite funny, i admit. But to me, it's serious!

I've always feared the flushing-- as far back as i can remember, it was kindergarten.

I get a sense of relief when the toilet is manually flushed because I know that it wont give me a heart attack by flushing out of the blue.

And that was my fear.