Being this hurt was unexpected.

I've been dumped.

No, My boyfriend and I are doing well, thank you. But I've been dumped by someone I thought was my best friend. I just hate myself for being so hurt by that girl-- I haven't had this much emotional pain since--God knows-- forever. I don't really need to explain what exactly happened since I gave details in the last entry, but MANN this hurts! I know that she feels NOTHING about this matter and she has just moved on to her other, newer and "closer" friends (though they've known her for less than half the years that I've known her). I need to stop feeling so attatched and realize that I've got to move on but it's just really hard when we had been such good friends. I just started college and so far I do not have much friends there (though I do have friends, but not the ones that I would call on weekends to hang out). I hate myself for acting like a little girl but I just can't deal with this right now.

What hurts me the most is that our friendship meant nothing to her.

While I'm here hurt and disappointed on the verge of tears, she is laughing and having a good time with her friends. While I'm questioning the meaning of ANY frienship, she is uploading pictures from her fantabulous weekend on MySpace.

Am I just too sensitive? Are frienships that disposable?

I really don't want to let this bring me down, but I just can't help but to feel sad and hurt.

Thank goodness tomorrow is Monday-- the more shit that I got in my personal life, the more I can focus on school.

I guess i have to let time heal me-- until then, I'll just have to be honest with my feelings.

And damn, I hate this sentimental crap!

MIYU